Oh, I'm not done yet

So I have to get this out...


I have Yahoo Messenger and I hardly use it because most of my friends contact me through Facebook or Twitter.  Anyhoo, it automatically logs on when I turn my computer on and I am listed as "available."  I walked away from my computer and when I came back about 5 minutes later, I have a message from my ex boyfriend, who I clearly deleted from my page.  Unfortunately, he hasn't deleted me and felt the need to contact me.  URGH!!!

His message to me was.."Hey (protecting my name), Dont know if your on or not but I wanted to say hi! Hope there are still no hard feelings and I would like to be friends. Im doing well and I hope the same for u."  Ahhhh he got no response from me.  Totally ruined my few minutes.  Oh well, I'm over it now.

Confirmation again?

Today I received another e-mail for the exact same job posting that I got over a week ago.  And now, I am not going to shuffle my feet, I'm running.  More and more this is just pure confirmation that I have to make a change in my career and my life.  I can't keep sacrificing my happiness for the benefit of a company. 

So tonight I am focusing on updating my resume and hopefully by the end of the week, I will be applying for that position.  I am still going to put in for the Federal Government because that is my ultimate goal.  But this will be a stepping stone for me to step out on faith and strengthen my experience.

Okay that's all for tonight...I got to update my resume!

Is this God's will appearing on my e-mail?

My pastor told us last night in Saturday Service that God can use any form of external confirmations to show you his will for your life.  It's only one layer of four but such a powerful one because anything around us (people, signs, mail, etc.) can be used for God to communicate with us.  He also said if we talk with God, he will talk back to us.  God's will for us is laid out already for us, we just have to believe in him and be open to receive what is in store for us.

With that being said, on Friday, I received an e-mail from a staffing agency, offering me to review a job opportunity with a non-profit company in the area.  At first I was wondering, how did they get my e-mail, especially my work e-mail.  I don't remember signing up for a staffing agency or any job/temp agency.  Secondly, who gave them my information or did they research all of the non-profits in the area that had similar job that would fit this position.  But through all of this analyzing I did in my head, I proceeded to read the information that was presented to me.

The job is for a newly created Member Relations Manager for a non-profit regulatory society.  The description of the job is definitely in line with what I currently do at my job, but you have a few more responsibilities and a opportunity to connect with international companies.  I check the legitimacy of both the staffing agency and the non-profit society and they are both are legitimate and fully operational companies.

So now here is my dilemma...should I stay at my current job or should I go?  This has been something I've been toiling with for the past year and figured after the summer travel season, I would dedicate myself to searching for another job opportunity.  Right now doesn't seem the ideal time for another position but at this point, I need to look out for myself and not so much for the job because they will still go on even after I'm gone.  I care too much for my current job that I stress too much for my current job.  But I don't want to pass up something that could be an excellent that would help me grow in my career goals.

Just to give you a little background about my goals when I moved to the area in 2007, I said that I would like to be in my current position for 3-5 years so I can establish myself to the area and figure out where I want to go and what opportunities are out there.  Also I wanted to finish my Master's Degree, which has been a road block because of the balance of work and the demands of work (travel and time).  I want to be able to network with other professionals in the DC area for one to build myself up as a young professional in the area and two to step my game up in keeping myself in the know in the job trends and what I need to do to align myself to advance my career.  And in 5 years, if my relationship status doesn't change, I would like to own my own home.

So with all of this being said in this long blog, I am going to take this to prayer with God.  His will is out there for me to seek and only he can give me his plan for me.  If this is where he wants me to go, then I have some planning and laying out to do.  I definitely don't want to let a great opportunity pass me because of my reluctance to step out on faith and make myself better. 

Quick though

Have you ever had a though that you are not completely happy where you are in your life right now?  Well currently I am having a moment at this time and I need to get a grip before it gets out of control. 

I had this feeling a little over 3 years ago when I was going through some things with my previous job, not being happy at home and just wanting better for my life.  But in all of that going on, I didn't do anything to change the situation.  In a snap, I lost my job, was just depressed and didn't know what to do.  With prayer and some close sorors, I was able to get a temp job to keep the bills paid and within 3 months, I had a new job in a new city.

While I am not going to relocate to another area (tell my mom, she would love for me to settle back in Richmond), I just feel like I am in a rut in my current position and not sure where to go.  I have a history of starting something and not completely carrying them out to the end. 

So while I am typing this, I plan to commit a few things to myself.  1) Daily prayer and be specific with God.  I need to stop playing.  2) Get a serious plan of action for the things I would like to do and again prayer.  3) Work on my finances because in a couple of years, I would like to purchase a home and join the ranks of homeowners.  3) Stop mopping around the house and get out.  The cold shouldn't be an excuse...even though I don't feel like I can be cute during with the extra windy days...lol!

Okay this was suppose to be quick but I had to get some things out...LOVE YA!!

Lazy Day

I love the days when I can just chill on my couch all day long, watch TV, nap and do absolutely nothing. No phones, no e-mails, no faxes or any other thing that gets on your nerves Monday through Friday. Unfortunately this is the only day that it can happen because Sundays are full of church, games and getting ready for Monday. So if you have a chance to have one of them days, even if it's a Mental Health Day, take it and enjoy it. We all deserve a lazy day.

My epiphany for the day

Well I just came to the conclusion that if I want to do something, then I need to move!! Not move in the sense of packing up my apartment and relocating, but move in taking the time to do whatever it needs to be done to make things happen.

I'm tired of being single so I need to go out and meet people. Stop mopping around my house.

I would like a new position. Get my resume together and send it out.

Get my finances under control. That means work on my budget and control my spending.

I want to be healthy. That means get to the gym and stop eating so much take out.

I think that's everything but I know my list will grow!

Remember, faith without works is dead!

Oh hell no

My neighbors above me have to go!!!!! This heavy stomping is riduculous, opening the sliding door every five minutes is annoying and the bowling of bodies on the floor is just unnerving. Okay I just had to let that out...GOOD NIGHT!!

Halfway through January

Hey ya'll.....

So today is January 17, 2011, Martin Luther King, Jr. Day and a little over halfway through the month of January. So far, 2011 has been a great year, doing things that I want to do and working on the things I need for me.

One thing that I want to work on is the time that I go to bed. Normally my bedtime has been 11pm or later and that makes one groggy b**** in the morning. So we are going to take baby steps. I'm going to work on getting to bed at 10pm.

Next thing is returning phone calls. I am getting so bad at that and really the only time I've been answering the phone is when it's family or close friends calling. So even if it's someone I'm not really conversing with on a regular, I will make an effort to call them or at least answer the phone.

Third, I have made a pact with my friends that we need to hit happy hour at least once a month and that we go somewhere different. How are we going to find men and potential dates if we don't get out there. Soooooooo our first meetup is on Valentine's Day.

Okay that's all so far. I will post a picture that I took with Aaron Gilchrist from NBC 4 News (he started at NBC 12 in Richmond, my hometown). He's such a looker and I am glad that I got a chance to meet him.

Anyways deuces!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

Thank God we have made it to 2011. This past year (2010) has had it shares of ups and downs with me. I brought the New Years in with some great friends that are the best (see my friend Terrance in the picture with me).

I know that 2011 has so much in store for me and I am opening myself to receive it. I hope to grow, to love, to be open and to be closed...but most of all to continue to build my relationship and walk with Christ.

Much love to everyone...and enjoy life, it's a celebration!